[ You guys don't know when he eats?? He eats inside towns and villages while you guys eat outside? Only sometimes does he snack with them and those are nice times. ]
Y... eah... I'll be fine in a bit. [ He settles back onto the bench with the water bottle in tow. ] It's a nice day, huh.
[ Blue skies, barely any clouds. If there are any, they are white and fluffy, very inoffensive. ]
[ He can eat outside with them if he wants? Nothing's stopping him. He just can't sleep with them. That's where the line is drawn.
Or where it was drawn.
She watches some kids run by laughing before she turns to look at him. ]
It's not bad.
[ It's very nice. Outside of Nier's unfortunate stomach troubles, it's been a pleasant day overall. This kind of day, these kind of activities, without anything pressing or dangerous looming over them. It's strange that this could become their new normal eventually. ]
[ He felt banned from the outside enjoyments forever!! Nier sees the same kids and smile... While he can't say he has any wants to have children of his own, Yonah being already enough for him, he's always glad to see kids enjoying their youth. It was different for them, after all.
His attention shifts back to her. ]
What would you consider bad then? Snowing?
[ Now that he thinks about it, he never asked what Kainé considers a good day. ]
[ Is sleeping outside really an enjoyment? When a relapsed Shade could jump you at any moment? Even if Kainé could dream of having children, even if they don't know Replicants can't reproduce, she wouldn't easily consider it with the life she's led.
It's a normalcy and a privilege they couldn't afford before. ]
Snow wasn't bad at the school. Throwing snowballs at you was fun.
[ This is after the fact. Even if we didn't thread it, it happened. I'm saying it now.
He may be talking about the weather, but it's never been the weather that's made her day shitty. Some days she wished for rain, but those were darker days. ]
[ People love camping and Nier found it fun when they did camp a bit in Wiwaldi. Why are you bringing the impossibility of childbirth into here... I'm in tears. You're right, though. Nier can never imagine kids when he has Yonah already.
Camping!! He has imagined camping with Emil and Kaine before. Nier sighs with a smile, remembering the ONSLAUGHT. ]
... Was it? [ Closes his eyes. ] It kind of felt like you pelted me until I was buried in snow.
[ No... Nier thinking about other kids when his sister is there is very difficult, but at least he would be a good guardian nevertheless. Or I would hope so. Nier squints at her, but the smile on his face persists. It's hard not to be fond. ]
Then maybe when we go to the beach, you can bury me in sand.
[ i took a small break from rp but also i never got the notif for this. either way, you have the power to say if he would be a good guardian? a good guardian who is never there......
an absentee guardian.
She looks at him, as if she's not sure she's completely surprised but she is a bit surprised. She's not against the act itself, but really: ]
Why the hell would you volunteer for something like that?
… Usually, I just let it go, but this time you should tell me why you think that.
[ Kainé is so fussy sometimes and he doesn’t generally drag out anything in fear of her beating him up. They’re at Disney, so he thinks he can be a little braver today (what a mistake). He also wants to know what she’s thinking sometimes?
IT SHOULDNT BE HARD TO TRACK HER THOUGHTS BUT NIER IS NOT ALWAYS INTUITIVE ]
Why you like burying people—what part of it? Why don’t you want to bury me in sand on the beach?
[ He has seen people do it all the time and both parties have fun?? He doesn’t understand and he’s also curious to know her thought process. ]
[ When has Kainé explained her thought processes? When has she ever feared being violent in public? If they get kicked of Disney World, they can go to another world's Disney World. This isn't Infinity Train, but the interworld train does give a near infinite amount of possibilities and ways to flee from crimes.
She has been made more overtly soft from her time in that murder school, but no one unlearns habits from a life of trauma in the span of two months. ]
[ Nier's optimism is truly so much, especially when it comes to Kainé.
She is never going to be normal, but she will grasp and clutch onto every moment of normalcy with him. ]
Don't volunteer to get buried.
[ That answers nothing. It's not that she won't bury him. It's he shouldn't volunteer for it.
It's an innocent activity on the beach, but his willingness chills her sometimes.
There are still times that she thinks he could disappear. She has never been good with using words to explain her feelings, but she reaches for his hand to hold. That is the start of an answer. ]
[ Nier really is here seeing the best in people, sometimes that best doesn't exist. It seems that again they're not quite on the same page... Nier is thinking about a nice warm sand burial where his head is still out for him to breathe, enjoying the sunlight, the blue sky, and the sound of the waves, but she's thinking of a funeral.
It's too far of a connection for him to bridge the gap, personally, so he continues to look confused, but he accepts her hand. From her touch, he can tell there's something heavy on her mind. Slowly, surely, he starts following her thoughts. Barely. ]
I'm feeling a lot better now. [ Moving on. ] We can go on more rides.
[ Kainé is someone who, if she buried him in the sand, would bury him head and all, so they're not entirely on the same page. If you must go, go all the way. She isn't here for some half-assed fun. It's full ass playtime, you know?
She isn't sadistic, but sometimes, a girl takes things a little far.
She knows there's some disconnect, but she doesn't often bridge it. She stands up, pulling him up with her if he doesn't resist. ]
One more.
[ It isn't the amount of rides getting to her. It's being around so many people even if she isn't interacting with them all. ]
[ I can't believe they are imagining DIFFERENT THINGS entirely. Full ass playtime sounds incorrect, but I'm glad she just assumes death. Who is Nier to resist? He lets her handle him back up, using that as a start to steady himself. ]
All right. One more, then we can go somewhere else.
[ Somewhere that isn't as crowded! Nier isn't sure where that is in a modern world, but adventure calls for him. As he's about to fish the map out he sees.
She follows his line of sight, and in a way that only he or anyone truly close to her can see, she retreats a little. There's an almost shyness as she averts her gaze. ]
... Yeah.
[ She's trying to be brave about this. She wants the memories. She wants the proof.
But it's also hard when her image of herself is so ugly. ]
[ Nier guides her to the booth and goes in first to show that things are all right. This is the only time he lets go of her hand because it'd be difficult to maneuver otherwise. Once he's in, he's already fiddling with the screen in preparation for them. ]
This booth doesn't have the stickers or sparkles like the one in Wiwaldi...
[ So not as cute photos, but he isn't discouraged by it. ]
[ The cuteness of sparkles and stickers would be a nice extra touch, especially for Nier, but at the end of the day, it really is about having a photo with him.
She settles into the boot next to him, but it's hard not to hold herself too stiffly or awkwardly. It's hard to do something like this on command. She doesn't let go of his free hand. ]
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She's a little incredulous, hearing that, considering: ]
We've done so much shit after eating.
[ Is all their murder not active enough?
When will he just admit to his weak ass stomach? ]
Take it easy, yeah?
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[ You guys don't know when he eats?? He eats inside towns and villages while you guys eat outside? Only sometimes does he snack with them and those are nice times. ]
Y... eah... I'll be fine in a bit. [ He settles back onto the bench with the water bottle in tow. ] It's a nice day, huh.
[ Blue skies, barely any clouds. If there are any, they are white and fluffy, very inoffensive. ]
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Or where it was drawn.
She watches some kids run by laughing before she turns to look at him. ]
It's not bad.
[ It's very nice. Outside of Nier's unfortunate stomach troubles, it's been a pleasant day overall. This kind of day, these kind of activities, without anything pressing or dangerous looming over them. It's strange that this could become their new normal eventually. ]
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His attention shifts back to her. ]
What would you consider bad then? Snowing?
[ Now that he thinks about it, he never asked what Kainé considers a good day. ]
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It's a normalcy and a privilege they couldn't afford before. ]
Snow wasn't bad at the school. Throwing snowballs at you was fun.
[ This is after the fact. Even if we didn't thread it, it happened. I'm saying it now.
He may be talking about the weather, but it's never been the weather that's made her day shitty. Some days she wished for rain, but those were darker days. ]
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Camping!! He has imagined camping with Emil and Kaine before. Nier sighs with a smile, remembering the ONSLAUGHT. ]
... Was it? [ Closes his eyes. ] It kind of felt like you pelted me until I was buried in snow.
[ Harsh. Ruthless. ]
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But will these two even think of it when Nier is a siscon and Kainé is Kainé? If they want to camp, they can camp now. Nothing to stop them now. ]
Yeah. [ There's a small curve to her lips. ] Why wouldn't it be fun to bury people in shit?
[ She's not that sadistic, but there's a sense of satisfaction in victory. ]
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Then maybe when we go to the beach, you can bury me in sand.
[ That's a fun thing to do, isn't it? ]
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an absentee guardian.
She looks at him, as if she's not sure she's completely surprised but she is a bit surprised. She's not against the act itself, but really: ]
Why the hell would you volunteer for something like that?
[ Nier? Hello? ]
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Nier blinks a bit in confusion, not prepared for Kainé to be so opposed? ]
Isn’t that what people do for fun at the beach…? Plus, you like burying people.
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She looks at him in disbelief. ]
Don't fucking volunteer for it, asshole.
[ She does like burying people, but that's usually people she doesn't like or are annoyed with.
And part of the fun is if they're not expecting it. ]
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[ Kainé is so fussy sometimes and he doesn’t generally drag out anything in fear of her beating him up. They’re at Disney, so he thinks he can be a little braver today (what a mistake). He also wants to know what she’s thinking sometimes?
IT SHOULDNT BE HARD TO TRACK HER THOUGHTS BUT NIER IS NOT ALWAYS INTUITIVE ]
Why you like burying people—what part of it? Why don’t you want to bury me in sand on the beach?
[ He has seen people do it all the time and both parties have fun?? He doesn’t understand and he’s also curious to know her thought process. ]
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She has been made more overtly soft from her time in that murder school, but no one unlearns habits from a life of trauma in the span of two months. ]
Why the hell do you want to be buried?
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reality: no
Huh. Nier tilts his head, already distracted from being asked a question back. ]
It's just a fun thing to do on the beach? It's also warm. [ WAit— ] That doesn't answer my questions.
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She is never going to be normal, but she will grasp and clutch onto every moment of normalcy with him. ]
Don't volunteer to get buried.
[ That answers nothing. It's not that she won't bury him. It's he shouldn't volunteer for it.
It's an innocent activity on the beach, but his willingness chills her sometimes.
There are still times that she thinks he could disappear. She has never been good with using words to explain her feelings, but she reaches for his hand to hold. That is the start of an answer. ]
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It's too far of a connection for him to bridge the gap, personally, so he continues to look confused, but he accepts her hand. From her touch, he can tell there's something heavy on her mind. Slowly, surely, he starts following her thoughts. Barely. ]
I'm feeling a lot better now. [ Moving on. ] We can go on more rides.
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She isn't sadistic, but sometimes, a girl takes things a little far.
She knows there's some disconnect, but she doesn't often bridge it. She stands up, pulling him up with her if he doesn't resist. ]
One more.
[ It isn't the amount of rides getting to her. It's being around so many people even if she isn't interacting with them all. ]
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All right. One more, then we can go somewhere else.
[ Somewhere that isn't as crowded! Nier isn't sure where that is in a modern world, but adventure calls for him. As he's about to fish the map out he sees.
A photo booth. ]
Actually... Want to take some photos first?
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She follows his line of sight, and in a way that only he or anyone truly close to her can see, she retreats a little. There's an almost shyness as she averts her gaze. ]
... Yeah.
[ She's trying to be brave about this. She wants the memories. She wants the proof.
But it's also hard when her image of herself is so ugly. ]
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[ Nier guides her to the booth and goes in first to show that things are all right. This is the only time he lets go of her hand because it'd be difficult to maneuver otherwise. Once he's in, he's already fiddling with the screen in preparation for them. ]
This booth doesn't have the stickers or sparkles like the one in Wiwaldi...
[ So not as cute photos, but he isn't discouraged by it. ]
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[ The cuteness of sparkles and stickers would be a nice extra touch, especially for Nier, but at the end of the day, it really is about having a photo with him.
She settles into the boot next to him, but it's hard not to hold herself too stiffly or awkwardly. It's hard to do something like this on command. She doesn't let go of his free hand. ]