[ One side of the world is super cold, super dark. Unlivable may not be quite right because evolution can happen and all those references to the Kingdom of the Night means something is there, and someone has or had to be there to create all the Accords. ]
Let's do it.
[ She doesn't have to think about it. It's a question with an easy answer for her. Their world used to be so small and with so many options now open to them, she wants to take them.
She is selfish when she is loved. She is selfish when she loves. She wants the people she loves to be happy.
At the end of the day, it doesn't matter where they are, doesn't matter what they do so long as they can be together. She doesn't care if it's murdering another Shadowlord. She doesn't care if it's something as peaceful and sweet as traveling for leisure. She just cares if it's them. ]
You're still paying for everything.
[ It's hard to say how much she means that, but it's something she says for comfort. It's a continuation of something they all shared.
For the family they built when it was just them versus their entire world.
[ Kainé is having such deep thoughts while Nier is envisioning a life of adventure, then also coming home to Yonah. There are some things Nier can't help Yonah with... Now that she goes to school and has friends, but he hopes that he can at least bring her new stories outside of what she can read. Maybe he can bring her souvenirs, too.
It's not something he asks Kainé to do out of love, but out of her own volition—yet isn't that still the same? ]
... I don't think there's anything I can buy out there. It seemed pretty deserted.
[ He also hops onto this roller coaster and steels himself for the wild ride. Again, Nier doesn't scream as much as he grips the railings.
Usually, he looks fine and dandy despite the small scare, but this time Nier seems pale and uncomfortable. ]
[ If he didn't bring up the idea of traveling, of making her remember that time she had to call him out on his hot garbage thoughts before they faced the Shadowlord, all she'd be thinking right now is how she wants this ride to be super fast. ]
We can travel beyond our world now, dumbass.
[ He can pay up in every world (maybe). As if she and Emil wouldn't have helped him regardless. They chose to fight with him, to die for him (even if Emil is too powerful to die, even if Kainé is not lucky enough to die).
Unfortunately, she seems fine during the ride, so she can catch Nier looking worse for wear. There is a spike of concern even if it doesn't show on her face. ]
[ Kainé is that dog that wants to stick their head out the window of a car going at fast speeds.
He meant in his world!! In other worlds, of course he will pay?! Anyway, he can't say anything because he feels sick to his stomach. This feeling is familiar, but the cause is strange to him. He has seen so many things, climbed so many heights, and yet the nausea is unparalleled. ]
I'm... Not feeling well.
[ But Nier is a trooper and is trying his best to quell it. Much like all of his problems, repress that however way possible until it can explore—hopefully in a better place than on the ride.
She enjoyed the ride, but Nier looks like he could keel over despite having done wild jumping that was probably worse than what the roller coaster put them through. Kainé takes his arm once they're both out of the cart and starts guiding him towards the nearest bench so he can sit. It's as gentle as she can make it.
[ At first, Nier thinks he's okay once he's settled on the bench, but at times his stomach doesn't want to calm down. Thank god there is a trash can nearby because he does use it.
It is very funny the dice said no, Nier can't handle doing too much after eating. ]
[ Nier is a good mom and malewife, so he has a couple of water bottles in their backpack. He has read up on Disneyland! Mostly the prices of food and nothing else since apparently that's the most important thing.
He doesn't drink water right away because bile and stomach acid, but he does when he feels he's ready. ]
I think it's more that we shouldn't be doing so much after eating?
[ You guys don't know when he eats?? He eats inside towns and villages while you guys eat outside? Only sometimes does he snack with them and those are nice times. ]
Y... eah... I'll be fine in a bit. [ He settles back onto the bench with the water bottle in tow. ] It's a nice day, huh.
[ Blue skies, barely any clouds. If there are any, they are white and fluffy, very inoffensive. ]
[ He can eat outside with them if he wants? Nothing's stopping him. He just can't sleep with them. That's where the line is drawn.
Or where it was drawn.
She watches some kids run by laughing before she turns to look at him. ]
It's not bad.
[ It's very nice. Outside of Nier's unfortunate stomach troubles, it's been a pleasant day overall. This kind of day, these kind of activities, without anything pressing or dangerous looming over them. It's strange that this could become their new normal eventually. ]
[ He felt banned from the outside enjoyments forever!! Nier sees the same kids and smile... While he can't say he has any wants to have children of his own, Yonah being already enough for him, he's always glad to see kids enjoying their youth. It was different for them, after all.
His attention shifts back to her. ]
What would you consider bad then? Snowing?
[ Now that he thinks about it, he never asked what Kainé considers a good day. ]
[ Is sleeping outside really an enjoyment? When a relapsed Shade could jump you at any moment? Even if Kainé could dream of having children, even if they don't know Replicants can't reproduce, she wouldn't easily consider it with the life she's led.
It's a normalcy and a privilege they couldn't afford before. ]
Snow wasn't bad at the school. Throwing snowballs at you was fun.
[ This is after the fact. Even if we didn't thread it, it happened. I'm saying it now.
He may be talking about the weather, but it's never been the weather that's made her day shitty. Some days she wished for rain, but those were darker days. ]
[ People love camping and Nier found it fun when they did camp a bit in Wiwaldi. Why are you bringing the impossibility of childbirth into here... I'm in tears. You're right, though. Nier can never imagine kids when he has Yonah already.
Camping!! He has imagined camping with Emil and Kaine before. Nier sighs with a smile, remembering the ONSLAUGHT. ]
... Was it? [ Closes his eyes. ] It kind of felt like you pelted me until I was buried in snow.
[ No... Nier thinking about other kids when his sister is there is very difficult, but at least he would be a good guardian nevertheless. Or I would hope so. Nier squints at her, but the smile on his face persists. It's hard not to be fond. ]
Then maybe when we go to the beach, you can bury me in sand.
[ i took a small break from rp but also i never got the notif for this. either way, you have the power to say if he would be a good guardian? a good guardian who is never there......
an absentee guardian.
She looks at him, as if she's not sure she's completely surprised but she is a bit surprised. She's not against the act itself, but really: ]
Why the hell would you volunteer for something like that?
… Usually, I just let it go, but this time you should tell me why you think that.
[ Kainé is so fussy sometimes and he doesn’t generally drag out anything in fear of her beating him up. They’re at Disney, so he thinks he can be a little braver today (what a mistake). He also wants to know what she’s thinking sometimes?
IT SHOULDNT BE HARD TO TRACK HER THOUGHTS BUT NIER IS NOT ALWAYS INTUITIVE ]
Why you like burying people—what part of it? Why don’t you want to bury me in sand on the beach?
[ He has seen people do it all the time and both parties have fun?? He doesn’t understand and he’s also curious to know her thought process. ]
[ When has Kainé explained her thought processes? When has she ever feared being violent in public? If they get kicked of Disney World, they can go to another world's Disney World. This isn't Infinity Train, but the interworld train does give a near infinite amount of possibilities and ways to flee from crimes.
She has been made more overtly soft from her time in that murder school, but no one unlearns habits from a life of trauma in the span of two months. ]
[ Nier's optimism is truly so much, especially when it comes to Kainé.
She is never going to be normal, but she will grasp and clutch onto every moment of normalcy with him. ]
Don't volunteer to get buried.
[ That answers nothing. It's not that she won't bury him. It's he shouldn't volunteer for it.
It's an innocent activity on the beach, but his willingness chills her sometimes.
There are still times that she thinks he could disappear. She has never been good with using words to explain her feelings, but she reaches for his hand to hold. That is the start of an answer. ]
[ Nier really is here seeing the best in people, sometimes that best doesn't exist. It seems that again they're not quite on the same page... Nier is thinking about a nice warm sand burial where his head is still out for him to breathe, enjoying the sunlight, the blue sky, and the sound of the waves, but she's thinking of a funeral.
It's too far of a connection for him to bridge the gap, personally, so he continues to look confused, but he accepts her hand. From her touch, he can tell there's something heavy on her mind. Slowly, surely, he starts following her thoughts. Barely. ]
I'm feeling a lot better now. [ Moving on. ] We can go on more rides.
[ Kainé is someone who, if she buried him in the sand, would bury him head and all, so they're not entirely on the same page. If you must go, go all the way. She isn't here for some half-assed fun. It's full ass playtime, you know?
She isn't sadistic, but sometimes, a girl takes things a little far.
She knows there's some disconnect, but she doesn't often bridge it. She stands up, pulling him up with her if he doesn't resist. ]
One more.
[ It isn't the amount of rides getting to her. It's being around so many people even if she isn't interacting with them all. ]
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Let's do it.
[ She doesn't have to think about it. It's a question with an easy answer for her. Their world used to be so small and with so many options now open to them, she wants to take them.
She is selfish when she is loved. She is selfish when she loves. She wants the people she loves to be happy.
At the end of the day, it doesn't matter where they are, doesn't matter what they do so long as they can be together. She doesn't care if it's murdering another Shadowlord. She doesn't care if it's something as peaceful and sweet as traveling for leisure. She just cares if it's them. ]
You're still paying for everything.
[ It's hard to say how much she means that, but it's something she says for comfort. It's a continuation of something they all shared.
For the family they built when it was just them versus their entire world.
Time to hop onto the roller coaster. ]
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It's not something he asks Kainé to do out of love, but out of her own volition—yet isn't that still the same? ]
... I don't think there's anything I can buy out there. It seemed pretty deserted.
[ He also hops onto this roller coaster and steels himself for the wild ride. Again, Nier doesn't scream as much as he grips the railings.
Usually, he looks fine and dandy despite the small scare, but this time Nier seems pale and uncomfortable. ]
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We can travel beyond our world now, dumbass.
[ He can pay up in every world (maybe). As if she and Emil wouldn't have helped him regardless. They chose to fight with him, to die for him (even if Emil is too powerful to die, even if Kainé is not lucky enough to die).
Unfortunately, she seems fine during the ride, so she can catch Nier looking worse for wear. There is a spike of concern even if it doesn't show on her face. ]
You okay?
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He meant in his world!! In other worlds, of course he will pay?! Anyway, he can't say anything because he feels sick to his stomach. This feeling is familiar, but the cause is strange to him. He has seen so many things, climbed so many heights, and yet the nausea is unparalleled. ]
I'm... Not feeling well.
[ But Nier is a trooper and is trying his best to quell it. Much like all of his problems, repress that however way possible until it can explore—hopefully in a better place than on the ride.
Slowly, he wobbles out of the cart? ]
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She enjoyed the ride, but Nier looks like he could keel over despite having done wild jumping that was probably worse than what the roller coaster put them through. Kainé takes his arm once they're both out of the cart and starts guiding him towards the nearest bench so he can sit. It's as gentle as she can make it.
There is a trashcan if he needs it. ]
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It is very funny the dice said no, Nier can't handle doing too much after eating. ]
Ugh.
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You brought water, right?
[ He's such a malewife. She can't fathom that he didn't and rummages through his backpack for it.
Drink some water, Nier. ]
You have such a goddamn weak stomach.
[ Her words are a bit harsh, but she's concerned. Fuck. ]
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[ Nier is a good mom and malewife, so he has a couple of water bottles in their backpack. He has read up on Disneyland! Mostly the prices of food and nothing else since apparently that's the most important thing.
He doesn't drink water right away because bile and stomach acid, but he does when he feels he's ready. ]
I think it's more that we shouldn't be doing so much after eating?
[ ??? ]
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She's a little incredulous, hearing that, considering: ]
We've done so much shit after eating.
[ Is all their murder not active enough?
When will he just admit to his weak ass stomach? ]
Take it easy, yeah?
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[ You guys don't know when he eats?? He eats inside towns and villages while you guys eat outside? Only sometimes does he snack with them and those are nice times. ]
Y... eah... I'll be fine in a bit. [ He settles back onto the bench with the water bottle in tow. ] It's a nice day, huh.
[ Blue skies, barely any clouds. If there are any, they are white and fluffy, very inoffensive. ]
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Or where it was drawn.
She watches some kids run by laughing before she turns to look at him. ]
It's not bad.
[ It's very nice. Outside of Nier's unfortunate stomach troubles, it's been a pleasant day overall. This kind of day, these kind of activities, without anything pressing or dangerous looming over them. It's strange that this could become their new normal eventually. ]
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His attention shifts back to her. ]
What would you consider bad then? Snowing?
[ Now that he thinks about it, he never asked what Kainé considers a good day. ]
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It's a normalcy and a privilege they couldn't afford before. ]
Snow wasn't bad at the school. Throwing snowballs at you was fun.
[ This is after the fact. Even if we didn't thread it, it happened. I'm saying it now.
He may be talking about the weather, but it's never been the weather that's made her day shitty. Some days she wished for rain, but those were darker days. ]
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Camping!! He has imagined camping with Emil and Kaine before. Nier sighs with a smile, remembering the ONSLAUGHT. ]
... Was it? [ Closes his eyes. ] It kind of felt like you pelted me until I was buried in snow.
[ Harsh. Ruthless. ]
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But will these two even think of it when Nier is a siscon and Kainé is Kainé? If they want to camp, they can camp now. Nothing to stop them now. ]
Yeah. [ There's a small curve to her lips. ] Why wouldn't it be fun to bury people in shit?
[ She's not that sadistic, but there's a sense of satisfaction in victory. ]
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Then maybe when we go to the beach, you can bury me in sand.
[ That's a fun thing to do, isn't it? ]
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an absentee guardian.
She looks at him, as if she's not sure she's completely surprised but she is a bit surprised. She's not against the act itself, but really: ]
Why the hell would you volunteer for something like that?
[ Nier? Hello? ]
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Nier blinks a bit in confusion, not prepared for Kainé to be so opposed? ]
Isn’t that what people do for fun at the beach…? Plus, you like burying people.
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She looks at him in disbelief. ]
Don't fucking volunteer for it, asshole.
[ She does like burying people, but that's usually people she doesn't like or are annoyed with.
And part of the fun is if they're not expecting it. ]
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[ Kainé is so fussy sometimes and he doesn’t generally drag out anything in fear of her beating him up. They’re at Disney, so he thinks he can be a little braver today (what a mistake). He also wants to know what she’s thinking sometimes?
IT SHOULDNT BE HARD TO TRACK HER THOUGHTS BUT NIER IS NOT ALWAYS INTUITIVE ]
Why you like burying people—what part of it? Why don’t you want to bury me in sand on the beach?
[ He has seen people do it all the time and both parties have fun?? He doesn’t understand and he’s also curious to know her thought process. ]
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She has been made more overtly soft from her time in that murder school, but no one unlearns habits from a life of trauma in the span of two months. ]
Why the hell do you want to be buried?
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reality: no
Huh. Nier tilts his head, already distracted from being asked a question back. ]
It's just a fun thing to do on the beach? It's also warm. [ WAit— ] That doesn't answer my questions.
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She is never going to be normal, but she will grasp and clutch onto every moment of normalcy with him. ]
Don't volunteer to get buried.
[ That answers nothing. It's not that she won't bury him. It's he shouldn't volunteer for it.
It's an innocent activity on the beach, but his willingness chills her sometimes.
There are still times that she thinks he could disappear. She has never been good with using words to explain her feelings, but she reaches for his hand to hold. That is the start of an answer. ]
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It's too far of a connection for him to bridge the gap, personally, so he continues to look confused, but he accepts her hand. From her touch, he can tell there's something heavy on her mind. Slowly, surely, he starts following her thoughts. Barely. ]
I'm feeling a lot better now. [ Moving on. ] We can go on more rides.
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She isn't sadistic, but sometimes, a girl takes things a little far.
She knows there's some disconnect, but she doesn't often bridge it. She stands up, pulling him up with her if he doesn't resist. ]
One more.
[ It isn't the amount of rides getting to her. It's being around so many people even if she isn't interacting with them all. ]
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